I have been accepted to the nursing program at Southern Utah University - Cedar City for Fall 2007!
I anticipate hearing from U of U in March and U of A will send out letters for interviews in mid-February. I'll keep you posted!
I turned in my last nursing school application Friday. It's been almost a week. I intended to blog immediately that it was done. The last of my requirements was done and now I just had to wait. It didn't feel like that though. I expected a feeling of relief but really, I felt more like crying or throwing up or both. I've been in a bit of a daze since then. Saturday and Sunday night I had nightmares that I didn't get accepted anywhere and Monday night I didn't sleep at all. Last night, I cried. Not really tears so much but chest crushing convulsions - a bit like the asthma attacks I used to get. Tonight the tears came. It's definitely a weird emotion. Not really relief, not really fear. More just tired and a release of stress and anxiety that I've been carrying for so long. Last night I slept. I think I'll sleep again tonight. I've given my best.
Completely different topic. I started nannying last week. I have 2 little girls, ages 3 & 5, Monday-Friday from 8-3. Pretty nice situation. They are sweet little girls and, while the adjustment from my boy nephews to girls has been an eye-opener, I like it. I don't know how much longer I can hold off on playing My Little Ponies though. I just don't know what I'm supposed to do! I'll talk more about them later, for now, I'm tired and going to bed.
I just finished reading "The Kite Runner" by Khaled Hosseini. Painful. I think that's the only way to describe it. I don't understand how people can hate so much. What a waste. I can't, or maybe don't want to, understand why people would waste their whole lives and their country trying to kill someone just because they are of a particular race or religion. The book is about more than that, it's about honor, forgiveness, weakness, shame, fear, redemption. Amazing book but painful. Just thinking about it makes my chest heavy and my throat tight. There was one quote that really struck me, "...that was how forgiveness budded, not with the fanfare of epiphany, but with pain gathering its things, packing up, and slipping away unannounced in the middle of the night." (p. 359) I think that's the truest statement on forgiveness I've ever heard. Whether trying to forgive myself or someone else, I have found that after I've done all I can do to redeem the situation I just have to wait. Wait for the ache to subside and for pain to slip away in an unnoticed moment.
I spent the day in SF today and tried out my digital camera AND Picasa2. I'm pretty happy. Maybe digital isn't so bad after all.
